I'm distracted not attractedYou attach without connectionAs I self serve my diffracted mindI don't want what I needI don't care about the scars I leaveYour name and smile a thrown out fileAs soon as we break awayOnly when I hate you do I really love myselfI will only let you downI can only fail youYou won't want me then I'll want youWhen you come back I won't want youPushed and pulled our minds will rip in twoI'm so scared of what I need I don't careAbout the scars receivedI live in self denialI'm afraid of what I've gotI don't know why I hate you when you love meMy life's the lies of you and iI've grown so hard that I deny accusations evenWhen they're trueMy pain is all I trust I don't careHow much I bleedDon't regret the time you met meDon't hold the harm I did against meI don't know why I want to hurt youWhen you touch meWhy do you stick around and let me do this?Why do you stick around for this torture?Only when I'm with you do I want to be withoutYour eyes are the windowsTo the emptiness inside me